jamie lovely : ) says:

It's been so long since I blogged last, I don't even know where to start. I'm trying to piece awkward bits of thoughts and sentences together and hoping it would be coherent.

So much has happened, and I do wish I captured it all down to words since clearly my memory fails me so much. Every once in a while I'd come back here and read some old blogs to remind myself of who I was or still am.

There's this one thing that I always remembered from a grade 12 teacher. She told us that after university started we must find a place where we think and review our lives. I always wanted to do it, but I never did. I was constantly running forward and not looking back. For all of this time, trying to grasp on whatever that is left of childhood and innocence.

I realize that a blog is exactly what I need to sort out my thoughts, but the process of thinking ALWAYS ALWAYS makes things more complicated than they have to be. Or maybe it's my way of running away from reality if I don't consciously admit to it by writing it all down. Maybe as you grow older you are more reluctant to bare your soul out so you never have to be weak. I find myself especially troubled when I realize that my bubble is slipping away, when I know I'm making a mistake and I am still going on with it. But that is growing up right? Can you just blame everything on growing up? I'm just thankful for my friends and how they always always always keep me grounded. But for once, I wish I can just be a little bit weak.